I've thought many times in the past week about sitting down to do a post, yet my heart has been so full that I didn't quite know how to put it all into words.
Last weekend, I had the awesome privilege of attending the Revive '13 conference in Schaumburg, IL, and quite frankly, I don't know if I'll ever be the same.
You see, I went to this conference expecting to come home feeling refreshed and revived, yet I came home with so much more than I bargained for, and I wouldn't trade what I've learned for anything.
The three main speakers at the conference were Nancy Leigh Demoss, Paul David Tripp, and Elyse Fitzpatrick. All three were phenomenal speakers, however, God chose to use Paul David Tripp as a means of immeasurable grace in my heart.
Anyone who's read my blog over the past two years knows that I've been walking through an intense season of trial….a trial that has been both devastating and heart-breaking.
And though I didn't necessarily welcome the events that took place in the past two years, I never questioned God or blamed him for allowing this to happen; yet I didn't understand what I could possibly learn from so much pain and loss.
Well, little did I know, God was about to use this conference to reveal to me more than I ever bargained for, and to give me an understanding of what he wanted to teach me through this trial….
Paul David Tripp started out his first message with these two questions:
1) what in the world is God doing?
2) and how inthe world should I respond to it?
Paul was speaking from Mark 6:45-52, where Jesus had sent the disciples out into a boat while he went up onto a mountain to pray.
He goes on to share how the disciples doubted Jesus, even though they knew him to be a good and faithful God,
And how, when they saw Jesus walking towards them on the water, they were afraid and didn't realize it was him coming towards them.
Now this is where God really started opening my eyes and revealing the purpose of these past two years to me…..
Paul points out that Jesus could've saved the disciples from having to experience this trail by not even sending them out into the boat, but had that been the case, he wouldn't have been able to reveal himself to the disciples in the same way.
Paul goes onto say, “Sometimes you need the storm in order to see the glory”.
But what really got me was this quote from Paul David Tripp:
The care isn't just Jesus's presence in the storm; the care is the storm.
I could go on and on with all that God showed me through this message, but it would take me all day to write it out
Basically, I felt as though every word Paul David Tripp shared with us was God giving me one dose after another of healing.
It was as if he was showing me that, had I not walked through this season of trial, I wouldn't see him as i do now; I wouldn't have seen his glory revealed.
As I've pondered all I heard that day, I couldn't deny the irony of all that Paul shared…
And through all of this, I've come to the conclusion that, though I'd wouldn't want to experience these past two years all over again, I wouldn't trade where God has brought me spiritually.
For I truly have seen God's glory revealed….
I'll probably be sharing more on this as the weeks go by, because I couldn't begin to put it all into words right now.
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