Rocking Whole 30, Round 2



Well, today marks Day 1 of my second round of Whole 30.  My friend and I were planning to starts this past Tuesday, but neither one of us had enough food in the house and weren’t prepared, so we decided to officially start today.

and I’m hungry.  Very hungry.

this time around, I am breaking the rules a bit and I’m counting calories.  Shhhh, don’t tell!

seriously though, the reason I’m counting calories is because though I’ll be eating healthy, whole foods these next 30 days, I want to make sure that I’m still staying within my healthy calorie range.

and it may or may not have something to do with the fact that I’ve gained 5 pounds. Uh, huh, I know.  And it’s so irritating, because things aren’t fitting the same and I feel gross.

So not only do I hope to kill the sugar dragon once and for all, but I also hope to drop those pesky five pounds!




it’s scary the hold that food really can have on us.  You know?  Do you ever imagine going without a favorite food and then find yourself having  an internal freak-out session?

yeah, well that’s how I am with sugar.  Seriously.

i have had times when I’ve actually planned out how and when I’m going to get my next Starbucks frapp or McDonalds Coke.  Don’t laugh, I’ve really done this!

and leading up to this Whole 30, I struggled A LOT with the idea of not having sugar for thirty days. And quite honestly, it’s actually an emotional struggle as well.

so I woke up this morning, and the first thing I thought of was how I could push this W30 off and start Monday.  You know, the old procrastination method of “I’ll just start fresh on Monday”?  Yeah, I know that one quite well, I’m afraid.

and in my mind, buy waiting until Monday, I could then have a McDonalds Coke today, and maybe some chocolate.  And maybe some almond mocha swirl ice cream… see where this is going, right?

i’m happy to say that I didn’t indulge that fantasy, and I have been eating well all day.  Except I’m hungry. *sigh*




i will admit, the one thing that has kept me from backing out today is my kids.  They know I was planning to start today, and they saw my bin with “Mom’s food” in the frig.

they have also seen me start eating healthy, only to fall totally off the band wagon and start eating poorly again.  And they know the negative affects that type of eating has on me, and yet, I do it anyway.

Seeing this pattern has really been bothering me, and I’ve come to realize that I want to set a good example for my kids.  I want to take care of myself, so that I’m able to take care of them, and so that they’ll see the importance of taking care of themselves.

the fact that I will actually plan out my next sugar fix was a good indication to me that sugar has become an idol in my life, and that I’ve allowed it to have a stronghold on me.

and you know what?  I don’t want to be controlled by sugar.  And I don’t want to desire anything more than I desire God.




A while back, I bought Lysa Terkhursts book, Made to Crave, and just in the first chapter alone, I was convicted and encouraged!  As Lysa shared her own struggle with food, I felt as though she was reading my mind and sharing my own struggles and thoughts.

For some reason, I started the book and then got away from it. I’ve decided that I’m going to get back to reading it, and I figure now is as good a time as any.

I know that I’m not alone in this struggle with food, and I’d love to hear from you.  Feel free to share in the comments and hopefully we can encourage one another along the way.


Girl time, summer, and I’m tired!



Summer.  A time for fun, relaxation, and freedom from the everyday norm.  Right?

so why is it that I’m so stinkin tired?

it may or may not be due to the fact that we’re not getting to bed until after 11:00pm these days.  And just to clarify, that’s when the whole family has been going to bed, not just hubby and me!

it’s really a sad reality when you go to bed at the same time as your kids, don’t you think?  And before we know it, we will be in a season where we go to bed before our kids.  Hold me.


moving on…..

summer is flying by, and I can hardly believe that we’re heading into the end of July!  For us, that means only about 5 weeks of summer break left.  Holy moly!

last Friday night, we had the privilege of hosting 27 teens in our house for a youth game night.  Yes, I did say 27.  And you know what?  It was awesome!

we had teens ranging from 6th grade up to 12th grade, with a good  mix of boys and girls.  We were a bit worried when it decided to POUR rain just as the kids were starting to arrive, but it only rained for a short time, and then it cleared up and just became very humid.

can I just say that I had an absolute blast that night?!

They were a great group of kids, and they basically played newcum(like volleyball, but instead of hitting the ball over, you catch the ball and throw instead) all evening, going into the house for snacks in between games.

It was so fun hanging out in the kitchen with a handful of teen girls I didn’t know very well, and just getting to know them better.  They’re so sweet and funny, and I enjoyed every minute of it!

the party ended around 10:00pm, and I was actually disappointed that it was time for the kids to go.  We’re hoping to host more evenings like this one, with the hope of being more involved with the youth of our church.


on Saturday, I left for a girl’s weekend with my sweet mom.

I drove to her house and enjoyed a relaxing three-day weekend with her.  We didn’t do a whole lot, which was WONDERFUL!  We ate, watched Hallmark movies (a.k.a. chick flicks), and ate some more.  We did make a Target and Starbucks run, but that was about it.

i so wish that my mom lived closer so that we could just meet up for coffee or go shopping together whenever we want, but for now, I’ll take these girl weekends whenever I can!

our whole family will be going to see her in a couple of weeks, which will be nice, because the rest of the fam hasn’t seen her since Thanksgiving.


On a different note, I started another round of Whole 30.  Yes, you heard me right.  And this time, I’m not going to give up after day 4! I am determined to rock this Whole 30, and when the 30 days are up, I plan to stay completely Paleo.

to be honest, I NEED this Whole 30.  I need to cleanse my body and get rid of the nasty affects that sugar has had on me over the past few months.  Sugar is bad for me, and it affects me in so many ways; and the more I have it, the more I want it.

and quite frankly, I’m tired of feeling like a slave to sugar. I’m tired of the pull that it has on me, and my inability to only have just a little and be fine with that.

today is only day 2, so I clearly have a ways to go, but I’m looking forward to rocking this thing, and feeling great along the way!

** How’s your summer going? Do you have any big plans lined up before school starts?








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